Updated again – I’m back, was: Now it is time to say good night

Update 29/12

I got out of hospital last night and have been asleep since then. I managed to avoid a trip to the loony bin – result!

I’m really touched by all of your kind words – it makes it a lot harder to hate myself when so many people obviously don’t. Many thanks.

I shall try to resume normal service as soon as I can.



In his suicide note the Polish novelist Jerzy Kosinski tells us:


I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call the time Eternity

That is more erudite than I can manage. Goodbye.


Update! – David is in hospital following a thankfully unsuccessful suicide attempt last night. He is expected to make a full recovery, but will undoubtedly be out of action for some days. Please don’t hesitate to post a comment or send him an e-mail if you want to send him a message.

I will update this post when I have more news. /Daniel

  • Richard katz

    David. You are someone I’ve heard so much about and really want to meet you over a fine meal and many bottles of wine. Please get well soon

  • Ron Pelley

    David
    Please make a full recovery. No saccharine here, but you should realise you’re not alone.
    Ron

  • Linda

    Douglas and Linda send their love

  • Tom Blach

    Bon courage, David and Daniel.

  • Richard Brooks

    David

    Gallows humour compels me to wish you a merry Christmas… and a speedy recovery. I am hoping to drink many more bottles with you this coming year, and you must both come round to meet my little boy. More David please, for a while yet. X R

  • David – reading your original post at 1.30 in the morning (and “posted 6 hours ago”) was more than a little disconcerting, I can tell you. After a restless night, first thing I did was check the wine-pages forum – expecting the worst, I must say.

    Though we’ve never met, and spoken only briefly on the phone, you come across as a really top bloke. So please get well soon – and don’t frighten me like that again! 😉

    Kindest regards
    Leon

  • TomC

    David and Daniel,

    My thoughts are with you both.

  • AC

    David, I wish you a full and speedy recovery. You writings bring a smile to my face and always show me someone who lives life with so much gusto, please never give up on that. For the future there is always more joy to be had, more wine to be drunk – the limits of pleasure are yet to be defined or reached. Take good care!

  • Antoine S

    Not so fast, you have a duty to entertain us with your literature!…call it a mission! get well!… and on with it!

  • David.
    I’ll be missing you in France. A reunion of the Oxford blind tasting group without you seems incomplete and all wrong. But I look forward to seeing you back in Blighty when you are recovered.
    All the best, and get well soon.
    Peter

  • Guy Dennis

    David,
    I look forward to seeing you when you feel like it, which I hope is soon.
    There are so many good dinners ahead, like the ones we’ve enjoyed this year, and I look forward to them immensely.
    In the meantime, am thinking of you and Daniel.
    Guy

  • Hope you make a very quick and full recovery David.
    Would love to meet you,and share a glass or two,when you are fit.
    cheers Keith

  • Jonathan Points

    I was so sorry to hear of your despair David. I so hope you will feel better soon and very much hope I can share a top bottle of Cedric Bouchard when you do.

  • Druin B

    I get terrific enjoyment from your blog, David, and both the writing and the events fill me with jealousy & vicarious pleasure in a roughly equal mix. I much look forward to reading more of your posts in the future, and perhaps meeting over a good bottle at the Hawksmoor one day.

    (I’ve also recently been over-using the word ‘refulgent’; the direct consequence of one of your tasting notes.)

  • Linden Wilkie

    I hope we have the chance to meet and share a bottle or three sometime when I’m in London. I really enjoy your writing. I hope you are feeling better soon.

  • Monte Mast

    Although we have never met, I enjoy your blog and posts on the wine berzerker board. Your wit would be sorely missed if you weren’t with us.

    Monte in Houston

  • Berry Crawford

    Please stay with us. The world is a better place with you.

  • How am I going to meet you if you don’t stick around? So please, linger more.

  • Dear David,
    Lance and I are so sorry and shocked you have been in such a dark place and hope that you can see some light at the end of the tunnel.
    We’ve really enjoyed getting to know you over the last year; you’re a top chap and a brilliant writer and you really need to stick around for all your fans.

    Thinking ofyou both

  • David,

    You wit is enjoyed by more people than you thing. Buck up man, you’ve got much more to offer! Best on a speedy recovery, Cordially-Shaun

  • Anthony Hall

    Dear David,

    I have enjoyed your posts – agreed with some and disagreed with others. You are part of our virtual circle of wine friends. I wish you a happy and peaceful 2011.

    Anthony Hall.

  • Ben Coffman

    David. I only really know you through your wonderful writing. The world would be a much poorer place without it. I look forward to seeing a great deal more of it. Thinking of you. All the best. Ben.

  • Rob

    David,

    You are very much in my thoughts. I shall be raising a glass of fine Burgundy in your honour later today, and looking forward to renewing our acquaintance over similar glasses in the future.

    Robert

  • Roy and Ann

    David,

    We are thinking of you. Please get well soon.

    Roy and And

  • Simon Lloyd

    Hi David,

    Pretty shocked to read this. All the best for a speedy recovery.

    Thinking of some great times in Oxford days!

    Simon Lloyd

  • Ed Murray

    David,
    Though we’ve never met, my life has been touched by your writings. I’m sorry to hear of your troubles. You’re a brilliant man David, I hope to read more of your thoughts. More importantly, I look forward to the day you see value yourself as others do.
    Wishing both of you well.
    -Ed Murray

  • Milo

    Best wishes from Milo & Bethan – we hope you feel better soon.

  • Peter Kleban

    Dear David,

    My best wishes and hopes for a full recovery. I’ve always enjoyed your witty, lucid, and perceptive comments, and not only about wine. I hope that you come to realize that the adventure of life, while sometimes daunting, is always full of unexpected pleasures and pleasant surprises. It’s never as bad as it might seem.

    All the best,

    Peter Kleban

  • Bill Johnstone

    David
    Wishes for a full recovery, You posses a rare wit that makes the world a better place.

  • Tropean

    David – The world would be a darker place without your luminous prose. Please don’t go. – A Fan

  • Mark Gough aka MdeMorey

    David,

    So sorry to hear you are unwell – getting better quickly I hope. Echo the thoughts of all those that care about you in terms of wanting you well very soon and wanting you back again sharing all your knowledge, skills & accomplishments with us all !

    I am particularly looking forward to seeing that red jacket of yours weaving in and out of a tasting ‘throng’ this year having just missed you at Loebs event in September. I know you share my regard for the wines of the wonderful Arlaud family – lets us share one or two (or more than that) when your soon back ? Hold me to it eh ?

    Cheers matey !

    Mark G

  • Helen and Stuart

    David,

    Please get well soon. So sorry to hear of this news. When you are feeling better would like to visit with Dad at some point soon.

    Helen x

  • Robert Pollard-Smith

    Another Berserker here who finds your notes to be (by far) the most fun to read at that site.

    Be well, David.

  • Ian Black

    David – very best wishes for a speedy recovery. Your tasting notes far outshine the dreary nonsense encountered far too frequently elsewhere. Looking forward to you being back soon.

  • David, So sorry to hear you are unwell – getting better quickly I hope. Echo the thoughts of all those that care about you in terms of wanting you well very soon and wanting you back again sharing all your knowledge, skills & accomplishments with us all ! I am particularly looking forward to seeing that red jacket of yours weaving in and out of a tasting ‘throng’ this year having just missed you at Loebs event in September. I know you share my regard for the wines of the wonderful Arlaud family – lets us share one or two (or more than that) when your soon back ? Hold me to it eh ? Cheers matey ! Mark G

  • Nice man! Get back on that horse. 🙂

  • Moochie

    Dear David,

    Please forgive me if this is out of place. I’ve been battling the “black dog” for several decades and have been in many forms of treatment. The only one I have found to be of some help — and only since these past twelve months — is Act (pronounced as the word, act, and stands for Acceptance and Commitment Therapy).

    The site, http://www.actmindfully.com.au/home has a lot of useful information. It (the therapy) appealed to me because it is an evidence-based therapy, and there is a good body of research pointing to its efficacy.

    For the first time, I can see some light at the end of the tunnel, instead of a tunnel at the end of the light.

    My sincere regards,

    M.

  • Steve McCall

    David, my first impulse was to type the stunningly inappropriate words “as usual I’m late to the party”. So much for impulses. I am, however, undeniably late in adding my voice to the others above in sending my best wishes for a speedy recovery. Your words never fail to provoke thought and amusement, and I look forward to reading them for many more years. Be well.